I guess this week’s haikus were a little bit down. I’d be lying if I said that I don’t look to the past, it’s almost impossible not to when I have my two girls around me as a constant reminder of what once was.
Now – and here’s the important bit – I know categorically that what was is not something I would ever wish still was; that time is gone and dead to me. It’s been a very long time since I last wished things hadn’t changed and my family – as it was then – was still at home with me. That period of mourning is well and truly over.
Having made what I consider to be some huge mistakes in my life, ones that certainly contributed to the breakdown of my marriage, it’s sometimes hard to look at what might happen next, grasping at those opportunities when they arise.
Life seems to fly by so quickly and it’s often hard to figure out what you’re meant to do next. Sometimes you can’t help but wish that someone would just open the door – the right one – instead of having to make that decision yourself.
Life is good now. No, life is great! Instead of just existing I feel like I’m living. Yes, the clouds come every now and then but I know that the sunshine will break through again because of Shelli, my girls, my family and my friends.
I wouldn’t be where I am today if it wasn’t for you all – especially Shelli – so thank you. My life is so much richer for having you all in it.
But the clouds roll on by
Revealing the sunshine.
Open the door
Pull me to the inside