I knew that when I decided to sort the girls out with dancing classes I would have to sacrifice my already precious time with them. Not seeing them for two weeks and then losing the best part of the day on Saturdays with them was always going to be a hard choice to make.
This weekend, with them being dropped off later on Friday and with all the fun and games around Eleni’s 6th Birthday, it really did feel like I’d spent not very much time with them at all.
They have so much fun with Asri and Eleni – which is wonderful to see – it sometimes feels as though they don’t really need me around. I know that’s a stupid thing to say as I get lots and lots of cuddles from them, but I do miss feeling needed, if that makes any sense?
It wasn’t until late Saturday night, when Alice was crying in bed because she couldn’t sleep, when this really hit home. I sat beside her bed stroking her head until she dropped off, and at that moment in time I realised how much I miss my two girls, and how much I’m missing of their lives.
There’s nothing I can do about it other than suck it up and get on with things. I wouldn’t want it any other way for so many reasons as I see them growing into independent little ladies, and seeing their relationship with Asri and Eleni blossom is a wonderful thing to behold.
I guess in some respects, the fact that I feel like this is actually an indication that everything is working, that my family is working? For that I’m over the moon…but I still miss my girls so very, very much.
Time with my two girls;
A short weekend made shorter.
I miss them so much.