I must apologise to you all – well, the few that come here to see if, yet again, I’ve not written anything for another week – for not having, erm, written anything for yet another week. Okay, the haikus are getting posted with a short paragraph or so explaining their relevance and some photos every now and then but that’s about it. Pathetic!
I don’t know why I’ve not been updating the site with my musings as I’ve actually been up to quite a lot recently. The bank holiday weekend was filled with merriment, starting off at the Reading beer festival and finished off with the Sweeps in Rochester and meeting up with family and friends. So why haven’t I added the stories from the weekend? Why haven’t I put pen to paper, so to speak?
What if my wife and/or her family/friends are reading the site?
I guess I could bring out the old and well used excuse of “I’ve not had the time”, which in part is true…ish…but I fear it’s more than that.
Sitting here thinking about why I don’t seem to be jumping in feet first to update the site when I’ve done something, or just have something to say, drew up blanks for quite some time until the penny dropped: what if my wife and/or her family/friends are reading the site? As soon as that thought came to me it just seemed to fit; that was the reason why. I think I’ve been a bit loathed to write anything on here just in case they’re keeping tabs on me. How ridiculous is that?
To start with, unless someone who’s been here has told any of them about the site then there’s very little chance they’d just happen to come across it. You certainly wouldn’t find it by searching for my name on the interweb that’s for sure and I’ve not linked to it from any of the old sites, so why would I think that they were – or indeed, would even be interested – in finding out what I’ve been up to? They’ve shown what they think of me the moment they all dropped me off of their friends lists on Facebook all those months ago.
Why would I think that they were – or indeed, would even be interested – in finding out what I’ve been up to? … Why should I care if they find out what I’ve been up to?
I guess more to the point is, why should I care if they find out what I’ve been up to? I think that’s the more worrying part of all of this. Why would them knowing what I’ve done, where I’ve been and who I’ve been catching up with matter? That, I’m afraid to say, I don’t have the answer to at this moment in time and it’s troubling me.
What I can say is, now that I’ve realised this fact, I’ll try and make sure it doesn’t get in the way of me writing on here. I’d hate to see this site die a death like the old ones. It’s a cracking design (even if I do say so myself) and I enjoy having somewhere I can just write, or at least I used to. I guess what I wrote in my author bio below is true: without me, my website is useless.
I will try harder. I promise.